How do you write an eulogy for a Parent.. I don’t know how to write one, never learnt it… I knew that I would need to someday but I hoped I never did.
But hopes have this inherent characteristics of dashing at the last moment. Like when you hope fervently for something but poof it goes when reality dishes out something unexpected..
So here I am with my poof moment writing the eulogy of my parent – my mother, my Ma..
So what do I write… That she was my only support system or that she was my most trusted backup plan for almost everything. Maybe that she was my punching bag to vent all my anger, frustrations, stress..pretty much everything.
Or maybe that there is suddenly no one to call me at odd hours in the day and ask ” kichu khayechis? (have you eaten something ?)
Should I talk about the times you would peek into my room with mischievous grin and say “it’s raining” and both of us would run to the terrace to dance with childlike glee in the first rains of the season.
Or the when you asked me to get a bright red nail polish for you..
Or that there is no one to think, plan or arrange my breakfast, lunch and dinner even before I wake up for the day…. Or that there is no one to look at my face and say” ki hoyeche tor ” (what happened to you) and then go on to predict my state of hunger , sadness, ill health, anger and a whole gamut of other emotions that you can think of..
Or that I can never find another person who could raise not just Dada and me but my daughter too with such elan and to being the little Angel that she is today…
Or that there is no one today who I can call – Ma!!
But I still continue to hope and pray that you have finally found the elusive peace you searched for all your life.. That you are finally free from all your struggles …and I know you have had many.. That you are in a place where you aren’t misunderstood any more and everyone knows you as the soft and gentle person you really were.. That you ardently loved even the once you so vehemently opposed..
And that we shall meet again… Somewhere… Sometime..
Always and forever with you… Ma